Ascending To New Heights – I’m Almost Home

“Is your company traveling Iberia Señora?” the lady at customs asks me. “No. I’m flying alone.” “Is your company flying Iberia Señora?” she asks again. What company? I look behind me to make sure there isn’t suddenly an entourage that has appeared as my “company”. Why is it so hot in here? I’ve had to … Read moreAscending To New Heights – I’m Almost Home

One Week Down and I’m Happy

I feel like maybe my words are coming back to me after so long and that makes me happy. It’s a relief because writing is how I deal with my emotions. It’s cheaper than a therapist that’s for sure. And I can take it anywhere I go in this world. Which is how I ended up … Read moreOne Week Down and I’m Happy

Please Forgive Me: An Open Letter to My Son

The sun shone brightly in my window this morning waking me from a fitful sleep. Once again, I struggled all night to find peace beneath the blankets. My life; our lives have always been in disarray since you came into this world and I’m so very sorry for that. I’d like to say I did … Read morePlease Forgive Me: An Open Letter to My Son

You Don’t Have To Be Scared

A stranger told me I should talk to you. My first instinct was to scoff and ask, “Why?” Then he insisted. This time my thought was, “I’ve tried to talk to her before and the conversation just doesn’t flow.” Before you start sulking away and feeling sorry for yourself, hear me out. You are hard … Read moreYou Don’t Have To Be Scared

The Velvety Blackness – This Is My Life

Velvety blackness. For only a moment though. It becomes hardened as I focus on the depth of the darkness more. I open my eyes a bit wider, trying to take in as much light as I can but it’s not enough. The glow from halogen lamps outside struggle to penetrate the wooden shutters in my … Read moreThe Velvety Blackness – This Is My Life

Happiness: Is This Feeling REALLY Mine?

It’s been so long since I just up and wrote a piece for the blog without thinking about it first. You know, mapping out my idea and how I would present it. Yet this morning I woke up with a clear head for once and wasn’t grumpy about getting out of bed. Although I did … Read moreHappiness: Is This Feeling REALLY Mine?

Unveiling Love: A Journey of Finding Myself

I’m sitting on my couch watching Netflix and simultaneously looking at the clock. Only an hour and a half until the meeting. I coordinated my schedule a week ago with my everyone so that I could make this meeting, yet I sit here not hearing a word from either of them about where the vehicles are … Read moreUnveiling Love: A Journey of Finding Myself

Recovery Formula: It’s Me Not You – Final Thoughts

I bet you thought I’d forgotten all about the Recovery Formula anxiety program, right? I didn’t. My anxiety has been off the charts the past couple of weeks and I tend to hate everything that has to do with anxiety during that time. Even coping strategies and the like. I didn’t want to do my … Read moreRecovery Formula: It’s Me Not You – Final Thoughts

What Happens When Excitement Overwhelms Me

I experience tons of excitement  when I’m doing my research. As most of you know, I have severe anxiety issues and often have major panic attacks. Not all of these panic attacks besiege me because of negative thoughts. There are times when I get really excited about something and my brain overreacts to the slightest … Read moreWhat Happens When Excitement Overwhelms Me